how much does our friendship mean to you?

friends show empathy to friends.. but some friends do not really 'communicate' this empathy, instead what's received is ridicule. you begin to hesitate to confide in them. whatt if they use my disclosure to hurt me in the future?

and then i realise that friendships do end, and friends part. i guess many of us expect our friends to always be there, and friendship to last forever. but i feel some friendships lose their importance gradually. im not talking about those that end suddenly from a disagreement.. but bout those that end because of a change in personality or lifestyle when friends drift apart. and all these thoughts are making me lost, losing faith in relationships that were built up. this is soo not like me. whats wrong with me lar..

do i get easily amused??? i do know that i get emotional easily.. cried after a phone call with my dad. he said he was happy for me, and it came almost too shocking.. cuz i seldom get encouraging words from them. maybe they dont say or show it.. but id rather they do.. coz those words and actions matter too much to me.